Snow...

The weather forecast predicted snow... But i personally feel that it would not happen... sure enough, there aren't any snow flakes falling any where near where i live... Some said it snowed at the peak of the skytower here... I doubt it... But i wonder, if it were to snow at the tip of the tower, the scene would be a very cute one... Imagine little feathery icy fluffs, drizzling down the upside down cone pillar... it makes me feel like eating muffins with snowy icing sugar peaks... It just keep on snowing at that part, like a puff of cloud hanging over magically over the tip... making its own little white winter where no one can reach...

Tired...

Tired and sick... I'm just going to be myself and only be myself for myself... Not going to be any laughing stock any more, or any bean bags to be punched at.... My message to myself, stay strong, you have been through this many times, it is painful, but scars always heal, they always do... I am grateful to still have my home, the pillars who support me are always there and will never change despite anything... Maybe there is a limit to everything... the limit is passed... I have flaws but it does mean that i have feelings too...

University Life...

It was a good start of yet another mass lecture...What i witnessed today was the first one that i had ever experienced - too many students were waiting for the lecture hall to empty, blocking the entrance of the exits which are connected to other lecture theatres... A smartly dressed security guard - like personnel had requested the students to move out of the way... i seriously thought that if the situations wasn't as controlled as today's, and the students were the impatient and cut-queueing lots, there might be a stampede every time a lecture begins or ends...
The one hour lecture was fun as the lecturer had not confined her explanation to the text book. She had even organised real life examples which involves some of the students who are present in the lecture hall... Some of the student volunteers were quite uncomfortable as there were at least five hundred pair of eyes staring back at them and examining them from top to bottom so as to complete the task of analysizing and judging someone by their appearances...
Before the lecture, i actually got lost trying to locate the room where laboratory manuals are solded... It is an irony that the grumble of having a small school compound during high school years now swifted into the complain that the university is too big and has lots of  complicated building structure... there was a building where i can only access level 1 and 2 through one entrance and its 3rd and 4th level through another... weird one as those levels couldn not be accessed by any doors in that building...
Winter seemed like summer here and this weather makes my studying a smooth process as i do not feel tired...

Lost...

Watching the final Harry Potter movie.. An exciting finale of the piece of childhood memory that i kept clinging on to it... Friends posted that it is over now... I realised that we have grown much, and the last bit of child in us ends with the destruction of the last 'horcrux'... and the dispersion of Voldermort into ashes or some form of translucent ashes... I cheered for the triumph of Harry Potter, but sadly enough, i couldn't let him go... The storyline is blurred now, weighed down by academic writings, the once running wild imaginations now switched to constant critical thinking mode, the joy of reading the wonderful narrations now become nuetral stares and glances at lengthy journals....
Where the child is now in me? Only in the screen i found the child in me running freely twirling wands at leaves which turn to tiny flying wings...
It is lost, i ouldn feel it in my heart anymore, it is lost in the forest of growing up... ocassionally peeking from thick mass of bushes and twisted tree trunks...
The forest keeps growing, the frequency of seeing the child lessens now...
Where is she? Lost in the woods...
Playing with herself, till the older one comes and guide her out and fills her tummy with dinner...in that case where she will grow, and there are no children left in the woods... Except Peter Pan who escapes growing up...

This Winter Break...

The New Semester is going to start in a few days' time... I took time to clean my room and clear my notice board... It looked so empty and dull that i started to fidget with my coloured papers... I was thinking about making some presentable decorations but then i ended up doing this...

Guess what. i wrote down the places that i'm looking forward to visit for the coming holidays and the other holidays to come... Hahaha... Well, i couldn't help it, New Zealand is a very beautiful country with picturesque views.... How i love the nature walks here... I have been exploring the North Island but not the South yet... So my next mission - South Island tour...I hope to do it this August break... It is so much fun to go around and take a peek in creeks and ponds even at home, and now i get to see penguins, seals, sealions, whales and dolphins over here... this is so cool... During one of my recent trips with some kiwiasians, I get to know about a typical joke that they have made about Asians: What do Asian girls love to take? Well, the answer is photos! Tons of them, and i have to agree with them partially, because i take fewer self- orientated shots now, but loads of scenic views in New Zealand... The views are just so awesome...

Oh ya, and a little update about my current life... I've just enjoyed two trips in the North Island - back to back... had a slight fever after that and now although i'm still recuperating from it with a slightly bad cough, i truly feel that my holidays did not go to waste..hehehe... gulp down loads of ice creams (Hokey Pokey!!!) and loads of baking lessons from Theva and going to Zumba classes make  my everyday life eventful... Newcomers are arriving at my residential area... Looking forward to meet them, and Re-O week is starting... all these new events make me super excited... And yea, i got to enroll in a Psychology paper as my elective... Love it and looking forward to the lectures althoug it is a bit heavy...I guess my schedule would be very very packed this semester that i start to wonder whether my blog will be dead for this semester? oh well, i'll see how it goes... Some of the photos..^^

Next was the ski trip with a Uni Club.



A night so leisurely...

Silent blows across the bridge... No howling winds clawing at the window panes... No footsteps along the corridor... The night sleeps so silently today... There, in me a yearning spur... to gaze at a  night sky bursting with twinkling stars bright and dim, big and tiny, in the distant... to gaze and marvel at the aurora with tones of red shadings dancing from electric red to glowing purple and turquoise, crimson to burgundy... in the icy veils of midnight galaxy...  waves lapping on the shore, the rhythm of the sea in the far distant... me, laying on soft shadows of the meadow... sniffing the grassy smell while staring at the spectacular wonder above the open space....