The rising and descending of emotions

I often ponder about the reason where certain ages must be related to certain emotions... when it starts with single digits - pure happiness, when it starts with two digits with  number '1' as the start - you should not give in to emotions at all, when the digits start with '2' people started questioning whether the person had any emotions at all... Is there something wrong with the person's emotions? Why she never seem to have any special one around her... It is tiring to accommodate the inquiries... the chatters behind.... Can't I be who I am as I please? Can I not cherish just one special person, but everyone that I know and appreciate... I'm sick of being humiliated, questioned with weird looks... Yes, I am what I am, I know how to love, and love to be loved, but it is just that I couldn't just love a person... That special one is no where to be found yet... Can't i be left in isolation? don't I deserve to love someone i really love? the more i ponder the more i think that Romeo and Juliet love never exist in reality, it is just mere infatuations. What is there to love...? building fantasies out of reality doesn't work... the feeling is temporary... Love is never equal... From what I observe and reflect, love is just a one sided feeling... the other part is of giving in and infatuations... Pronouncing love, after years of looking at each other in the faces... there wouldn't be anything but responsibilities and commitments and continuing the species... Then, the role of love is over... It is not that I condemn this universal truth, it is just that because of this cycle, the species within the species speculate... some in frustration rebel, some remain silent and follow the cycle, some became the talk of the other so - called commoners.. Thinking hard isn't bad, thinking about lots of stuff isn't bad either... it makes me views things clearer instead of being knocked out or jumping in the bandwagon without further clarification... maybe I'll jump in the bandwagon too, but with a clearer mind... maybe I will not be jumping in at all... thus, becoming the talk of a small town... the twisted roots threaten to choke... hidden within the soils of the planet... once succeed..pull all the nutrients out of our body... as it is a mere entity to generate more entities...