the new phase of metamorphosis...

The last rainbow streaks... across the velvet pond...
the day would soon be gone...
where the past is left to reflect and reminisce...
the dawn is due in feast,
when the clock strikes twelve, the glass shoe left is forever gone..
and what replaces it is something to look forward to...
a brand new day...
a brand new carriage, driven by horses with speeds as swift as the  wind...
a blue dim glow grew bigger shimmering with unknown forces...
oh wow, a whole colony of the rarest fireflies with shining torches as blue as the depths of hydro's earth bond form...
a greater time, worth growing to grace the utmost knowledge and life to come...

Trip...

Hope the soon to be trip these few days is delightful...
Summer's the time to celebrate...
reunions... are plentiful...

Happy winter solstice and a merry chirstmas!^^

Long Silent...

Yes, I am happy... being happy with my life... Yet, I am greedy... greedy for the half forgotten sound... Am I wanting too much? I just need to hear the calling too... to assure my soul, that nothing changes... that the reality is what I wished for... I dread the uncertainty... I dread the long silence which creates much of the uncertainty... It is too quiet... where is the chimming of bluebells in the field...? where is the humming of the tiny merry sound... I need to know... what it is about to keep me going, to keep me hoping... that one day, the sea would be mine... the waves that hug me so tender... the only type of waves which are meant only for me alone.. ever since I saw the secret of catching the sneeze of the sea... caught unaware, I wish I knew how to catch the breath of the sea... the lungs and mine become one... growing fountains out of half drowned caves.... the breaking of silence... It is hard to keep the little faith as I waited so patiently for the first siren's call... where it lies, the seaweed bubbles bloom... Please, I wish you could understand me...

Mending Heart...

Homesick, not really now that my parents are here... Missed hanging out with them... There are a few more days left... I am going to make full use of it... it's a good thing, I thank god for making their trip safe and sound... I thank god for eveything that I have been blessed in life...
I would not query the unknown... May the same would be for me next time to know the new member in my life...
the one other who will protect me and weave blessings for my family..
I hope for just hopping that it would be true in the future...
I think I would have felt loved again...
there goes all the crossroads that i have not passed in my life..
there are lots of them out there..
Life...

Petals

Petals red, yellow and pink fell...
the mossy area was filled with overwhelming fragrance..
showers come flattening the retals.. coat they with half boiled mud...
the colours are still fresh...
 where youth had gone...
it sailed together with the brown eyes that follow suit...
the aging of century...
a haven? a heaven?
trust me
no one knows..

One big family

Reunions... are hard to come by...
Little warmth.. No more feelings where you realise a part of you is lacking...
Sickness recovers...
Days are brighter...
Wind is milder...
Great health grows with reunions...
That's always the sweetest moments in life...

Where the wholesomeness is felt,
I experience pure bliss...
a grateful heart...
for what God gave me,
I couldn't ask for more...

Raving Weather

It was as if there was chaos among the clouds... the roof mourns of greyish blood trickling down... the buildings shiver... their fresh paints gulped the blood greedily... leaving droplets of it smeared down their towering throats...

there was no way I could glimpse upon the very last of the meteor showers this year... too bad it was of my horoscope too - Geminid meteor showers... they are the brightest amongst all... pretty little sparkles across the sky which would not break the chaos that cloud its mind, blocking us from viewing what was above all of its clouded mind... I wish to wish upon them, to gaze upon the heavenly phenomena... how pretty they would be, under a clear cloudless night.. to think i had the chance to set my eyes upon them... a remorseful and helpless feeling that I have... they will pass without a flicker... as the rage of all rages continue... all that I hear now is pitter patter... 

Status Hound....

what i wished for i don't wish for...
Great deeds, the greater the others...
what is big when big is comparable...
what are ambitious dreams? when ambitions are not after all ambitious?
pride? linked to.... wealth? status? prestige? are those pride?
if you think they are... wow, your thoughts do delude you...
what a pity, i couldn't pity such a mentality... get as sarcastic as you want...
for what is left of you are merely rottening bones when you die... no... there is no pride nor status when you die except a tomb stone which turned cold and worn out... eaten ad forgotten by time... and your remains are nothing but feast for the worms...

Little melody...

Went to Otara Market once more.. It was a merry little place... people were all over the place finding for the cheapest farm produce... Many were much cheaper than the city... the simplicity brought contentment... I bought the biggest and the rosiest apples... the folks that lived there and around were mostly Pacific Islanders... There was a short performance... Their voices were superb and strong... Worshipping God... simply charming to the ears... I imagined them singing folk songs around the campfire... That would be such a deligthful chilling activity... The breeze blew gently... blowing the peaceful spirit into everyone aroung them...

Little feelings...

My tiny feet set along the pebbled path...
Leading me towards a lush green clearing...
I saw it from the thick tropical bushes...
I continued walking...
there were rattans twisted around little limp trees...
choking them along the way...
I was wary...
wary that they too might come alive and choke me...
the was once, a story that I had heard...
passed down from generations,
those choked were turned into trees..
I keep walking...
If those were true,
I might have been turn into one...
the doubts that filled me are like little droplets of crystal dew..
trying in vain to wash my conscious eyes awake...
the path was slippery...
a sign of  fresh recent downpour..
the smell of soil...
I sniffed with delight...
a scent I favor over artificial branded perfumes which are
like hormone sprayers against the face...
like synthetic honey-like liquid attracting foolish bees...
the clearing backens...
How nice it would be in the open grounds...
admiring birds hovering across the rippling skylines...
a taste of simple bliss...
My heart had reached that clearing,
but clearly my body hadn't...
My worn out slippers struggle through the sticky marshy mud...
are my doubts been cleared that i could reached the clearing before dusk...
I fear...
the forgotten legend come true... dragging me into the dark...
silencing me forever...
Right now, there is still time...
I lift my determined feet and tramp forward...

Leisurely Stroll...

The morning weather had been good... Neither too chilly nor too glaring... the wind blew a welcoming tune... My heart leaped... Why not a stroll in Domain...  the park where I had thrown to the back of my mind even when I lived near it... Now, it was further away, but it was indeed satisfying... I love peaceful strolls... the mornings here aren't too bad... I actually like sweating even back then, but the long half stroll half jog was not very good for my sweat gland to start functioning even after I had been walking for nearly two hours... The more delicate side of the park was hidden further down towards Lower Domain... I came to the end at Parnell but jogged back swiftly to the Cherryblossom Groves... and back through the main entrance near the hospital... It was a good one... previous visits had all but a rush, the touch and go type... people often jogged near the duck pond and winter garden... I ventured further... the forest walks were refreshing... It was amazing to be walking in a mini forest which is situated in the midst of a busy city... I won't call it a metropolitan.. It is less hectic as compared to the capital city of my country... I chose to take the Lovers Walk, as I've never been through that part yet.. the other route pointed towards Glade's Path (which I  had set my foot before).. I'm easily delighted by tiny bits which others consider as boring... My delight was that of the discovery of a  tiny waterfall which slaps the brownish - black stones with  its clear dancing water... it flowed into a merry little stream, the sound of simple joy... Along the walkways, fragrance from unknown flowers filled the air with a refreshing spur.. Birds such as the fantails hopped across my path occasionally... I was alone... it felt so good... being just with the nature...
I might do it again as days are carefreely passing by now... trees were like those which resemble the fairytales narration. Lovely blue bells drip down from their slender stalks.. echoing the hums of the bees within..

 

Dragons

Indulging myself in a very relaxing break after the hectic second year, I brought up all my yearning for a good reading session filled with my own thoughts and imagination. The city library do me good by having such a heavenly collection of books that I had set my eyes on so eagerly since I first learnt of its location. Yet, I could just swallow my cravings as assignment due dates and courseworks were burdening my head all the time.

Finally, my urge is being filled... I have frequented the library now that I had plenty of time to spare. Books of all sorts have I packed merrily in my usual  backpack meant for lectures, replacing the seemly dreaded text books... It felt lighter although I was carrying several bulky story books from the library... Funny ay... It was this particular book that touched my senses, stimulating them, waking them up or rather activating my almost dormant imagination which had been bogged down by continuous academic workload which were actually quite dry though interesting in another way... My imaginations started running wild... I had never felt this sort of enthusiasm for a very long time... It was a sort of awakening... A wave of sensational bliss within my still youthful heart. The title starts with the D word... although most people are now being dazzled by vampires' hot looks and narrations (pardon me Theva =P)... I continued to be amazed by how easily I fall for dragon-ish tales and trilogies... I am hooked... A must read book.. It is more of a mind developing duology (as the third book isn't out in the market yet)... The writer Robin Hobb has indeed presented the most wonderful narration... The descriptions were simple but they captured my senses and mind images to the utmost level... I had never imagined such a wonderful image of a story before...  I had finished the books 'Dragon Keeper' and 'Dragon Haven' in just two short days and is craving for more of the last sequel... The funny thing is, I ran all the way to the library immediately to get the second book after I finished the first one... It was that addictive...

Time like that are hard to come by, I doubt that after this long break, I would have such a relaxing period of contenplation when I move on to my third year...Life has not been as carefree as my childhood days, I bet everyone had felt the same way as I do... Books are the only gems which carry me back in time... Where the fantasies exist...



 

Farewells

Farewells are hard... It's the clingy feeling or attachment you have for people you care about... It is the feeling of not seeing them again to hang out and chill... The laughters that were shared, the topics that we converse about... All those were just real at those moments... Joy was also real at that moment... For now it there would be no more such privileges.. which had extended towards the frieindship we've built... It is short and brief  yet meaningful... These cherished moments... the very precious moments that would be blurred in life... as years washed them by... those would become fond thoughts which fed the energy into life...