Waiting...not for yesterday but today...

everybody is waiting...expectations- the ideal self created fantasy of every aspects in life... Sometimes waiting doesn't really bear the fruits of waiting... Waiting for the wrong thing is one undeniable mistake or maybe an unachievable act... Waiting for something abstract is even worse, we do not know the outcome at all... When we expect too much or have high hopes, the disappointment turns higher... This is the point when we are very vulnerable... we sometimes crushed... falling apart with a sudden feeling of 'never to get up again'... Yet, human being do have innate resistance when this sort of situation happens... we bounce back as time ticks on, layers of reinforcing materials are built around, forming an even higher resistance called numbness... Although the reinforcing material does not heal the wound, it protects it... So, no matter what happens I'm going to wait... waiting is a risk, I'm ready to take the risk... (my resilient level is high)... I hope that what i'm waiting for is a positive one...