Two choices...

I've gotten the timetable for my forum... It's on the 5th of May, which is the second day of our Tesol camp... We are required to wear sports attire during that session, so I guess it will not be a very formal forum discussion... I'm nervous to the max... There are only two choices for me now...

First choice:
Stammer through the introduction... tremble through the overview part... mumble crap throughout the discussion... Faint during the conclusion speech... bear the embarrassment for my own self, my classmates, and most importantly my institute's reputation...

second choice:
Quite well verse in my intro, discussion...able to discuss on sustainable development with other panellists... manage to answer all the questions that will be brought up... end the session with a not too lame performance...

I hope i can meet the expectations from the second choice that I've imagined... Wish me luck!!!^^

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你 給 別 人 的 形 象 * 準 !

你是屬於水果香形象你充滿自由愉悅的氣息，總是沉溺左遊樂場當中，像個天真無邪的孩子。有你在的地方，整個氣氛都會興奮起來，所以你是聚會中不可或缺的人物。雖說你個性開朗，受到大部份人的喜愛，但別人一般認為難以跟你成為親密好友，即是說，你給人的印象只是個搞笑能手。有些人覺得你愛玩弄別人，依賴性又強，所以不太願意親近你。不過，真正的你其實十分成熟穩重，正因透徹了解你的人不多，所以知己朋友也相當少。

Very true...

Outing with roomie...

My roomie, Mei Sang and I

At first I was supposed to go to pasar malam with Theva and Suya but then... It was cancelled on that day, so my roomie asked me out to have a steamboat dinner... It was fun... (Hmm, i seem to write a lot about my life nowadays with more photos, dont know why... =.=!!)

Art Appreciation Day...

I went to DDKA as usual today as it is a Friday for our Moral session. The only thing that differed was the activity carried out today. No presentations from certain courses...But a pyjamas - creating competition was held in collaboration with the Art Appreciation Day or the other event is Global Day... Okay, it was nothing fancy, just made all those out of newspapers...But some turned out to be really creative pieces... Just look at the photos below... Actually there are more...but I'm too lazy to upload it...

all the other groups' models standing in front

i like the stuff bears they are holding... cute^^

my group, which does get any prize...Because we didn't really try hard to design it...

Preparation for Language Camp...

Guess what, we do not have any lessons for days... Just because of the preparation for English Camp... Anyway, it was fun preparing mini souvenirs for the primary school kids whom we are going to teach for a day... I mean it's kind of a trial for us right?

The classroom was in a mass as we did the cutting and pasting work without bothering to clean it up just yet...

Just imagine the 12 hours bus journey to Kedah to attend the camp... I hope I will not develop any nausea during that long trip... Well, that's a piece of experience that i think will never forget... Less than two weeks time, we'll be setting off... Geeeee.....

These few days are extremely packed with all the last minute rush to finish all the preparation for the Language camp... And a heavy burden adds to it - practice for dramatization of Merchant of Venice....Forum speech....Great... So much to do and worry... Haiz... Life is such that we have to live through it to experience its greatness...

souvenirs for the kids - some sort of brooch ^^

A Wonderful Experience...

I woke up at 5am this morning though it's a weekend... Dragging myself heavily towards the bath room, i had half wished that I'm still fast asleep in my cosy bed...
Why do i wake up so early?
Well, I had wanted to attend the 43rd anniversary of Chi Ji's organisation... Si Ting n I were to wait at the guard house to be driven to the Chi Ji's centre...

It was not a party type of celebration, as we were ushered into the third floor of the centre to hear the speech given by the founder of Chi Ji live broadcasting from Taiwan... Then it was breakfast time...We had handmade longevity noodles with herbal sup...It was refreshing though kind of simple...

The second session was continued by chanting session where we chant the Triple Gem Mantra and a few other Mantras... I cried again as we were shown the video clip which shows the efforts done by Chi Ji members who reach out to help the unfortunate... it was so touching...I just couldn't stop my tears from streaming down my cheek... The celebration ended in a very meaningful manner...We were given souvenirs... It not a very stylish one, but I like it very much... And It's EDIBLE... I was just too reluctant to eat it... Two mini pau in the shape of peaches sticking side by side in a small box... (picture below)

Then, my seniors and I went to eat some vegetarian lunch...It was lovely...I have a craving for vegetarian food, and this was a chance not to be missed...

Just look at the 'fish' It's made of bean dough actually... I simply love it...Tasty and succulent!!

Though it's a simple meal, a simple photo of it here doesn't look appetising enough to attract any one's eye...I enjoyed it very much... Rice and veggie dishes is the major treat of my simple life here, though many of others preferred western or Japanese cuisine which can be found in abundance in City Square...

As a whole, I enjoyed myself very much...It has been one meaningful day for me!

A Touching Story...

Yeah, finally I have managed to get my hands on story books after months of coping with their absence... After reading the whole book entitled 'Her Father's House' by Emma Sinclair, I found myself weeping... I'm getting more and more touchy these days...

The storyline was a very good one... It has included the setting in Asean country (Singapore) as well as in America... So it is thus a mixture of both eastern and western culture... It tells about how an adultery brings about family turmoils and unhappiness... This story is filled with dashes of excitement in every page, attracting me to keep reading it... How war separates family members, how social statuses prevents the characters from choosing the ones they truly love, how a single desire for lust brings about major changes in life which may affect the whole life... It was simply fantastic... All of these events happened to the Trevellan family...

Some people may find it quite boring because it does not contain too many flowery language... Too many fantasies... Too many happy endings... It only circulates on the life of a Baron's family threaten by greed, hatred, unhappiness, forbidden secrets... In fact, actually it truly brings out the reality of life... These days, I'm not quite into happy ending stories... Though this story in a way a happy ending, death, remorse and guilt shadowed it...

When I first borrow this book from the library...Theva said: It's not my cup of coffee, it bores me because it talks a little about war... Still, I really recommend it... Mind you it's not a new book with sweet smelling paper scent... It's already a very old story book ... The main character Jennie went through odds and obstacles to achieve the life she dreamed of and also to protect her family's home... It truly touch my heart deeply...

I get to feel the warmth of a true family, a special bond which will unite every one of the flesh and blood 'like the falcon back to the owner's hands'. It is somewhat similar to "The Lone Eagle" which i've read previously, but this one involves many conflicts...

It's a book of passions... Emma Sinclair really brings out the gist of life which put readers in a position that allows us to experience the brutal life...

Forum... *Shivers*

Ohh well, English Camp is to be held in Kedah in three weeks' time... It sounds fun but with all these activities arranged during that camp adds a little tension on me. First time experience of being a panelist in a forum, though it's not as serious as those that i've seen on TV, I guess...Still, I couldn't help being nervous...

Information gathering is quite daunting for me... The discussion during the forum covers a large area of general and specific facts... What if some course mates from other campus bombard me with questions that I'm unable to answer... It's the imaginary embarrassment that i've visualize which makes me nervous...

Anyway, I'll try my best to overcome all odds... Though I'm not targeting to be the one that shines out during the forum, I do not want to be the black sheep of my campus either... So, I pray that the conditions on that particular day will be an optimum one. My emotional turmoils, my nervousness, my voice, clarity of my mind, my health condition... I hope these few aspects will turn out to be just right for me during the forum...

Looking forward to it... Mum said that to overcome a fear is to face the fear itself...

P/S: To all my matriculation friends, all the best in your exam... Strive on...only one more day to go, and you'll be free... Beginning a new life in U this July... Good Luck!!!

Small pleasures...

Ever since I've started my studies here... Everything was routine... Lessons, assignments, tests... I take pleasures in little things, even trifle ones...

A small piece of sushi delights me... Food delights me a lot nowadays... Mum said to me for the first time in my life "You should be on diet dear..." Hahaha... I looked a bit chubby, face wise... maybe because of my new hair style which emphasizes my round face...

I made my library card yesterday... i mean the public one... (finally)... sniffing the damp smell of paper bag books, imagining tons of stories busting in them waiting for readers to savour them from within... That was one familiar feeling that I've abandoned for at least eight months since I've gotten here... My imagination suffered due to the absence of these story books which gives life to it... I borrowed three books for two weeks... Do I have time to read them? Hmm... But still, borrowing them is a rare treat as free times as scarce...

I find amusement in the attics of mynas who are permanent residents of my hostel's balcony... Some time they'll bring their fresh catch, and perching on the cement platform enjoying it... Most of the time their piercing chirp (not quite a chirp, a scream is more likely...) though doesn't sound like the melodious songs of country birds, adds a little sprinkle of nature in this skyscraper - filled land...

Sharing stories with my roommate thrills both of us... Still, assignments pile sky high, thus these times are short and brief... a quick conversation makes my more speaky.... Haha...

Small pleasures which i think will not be forgotten even when I'm an adult...

Just being an introvert..?

Finally, my exams are over.It's kind of a relief. I had never experienced such intense tension before. But why am I still so uneasy? Maybe I'm worrying too much about the outcome of it.

Though now that I've more time to spend without any assigns (yet, so far except for the hand ball assign which i have no idea what to do as we weren't brief on it yet). I do not feel like going out to tour around JB though that was my initial plan. Have I formed the habit of cooping up in my room? I seemed to feel more comfortable lazing on my bed online-ing or reading the papers... No!!! I don't want to be an introvert!!!

This habit, built unconsciously freaked me out. I'm so unsociable. Maybe because I'm lazy to walk out of the campus grounds, dragging my heavy body to Larkin bus station, to walk around shopping malls doing nothing but window shopping. All the travelling soaks out my energy nowadays and i don't know why. The enthusiasm that I once had is gone. I can't feel any excitement in life. Doing some exercises during these few weekends is hindered by the fact that i didn't bring my swim suit here or else I might go swimming with Kamilah, the desire to play ping pong fail to materialised as the doors to the table are closed during weekends, play basketball without any friends is just meaningless, the badminton court must be booked first...

Therefore I ended up spending my weekends in my room... Haiz... What dull life have I these few days... :(