This Day...

Rushed through two assignments which had eventually finished. One more to go. Sleepless nights are going to end soon. High tea for TESOL/TESLians will be held tomorrow,but i do not have the yearning because of all these assignments...

On my way back from class, i saw a flatten feathery piece laying on the brown sand looking so helplessly dead... Yeap, a flatten carcass of a bird with feathers still stuck to it... The poor little thing had died several days ago i think... I wondered whether it was a sudden death or an accidental one... the deformed body with the soul removed from it... a sad sight to behold...

Randomly thinking why on earth do we rush through life? It's tiring for a start and tiring at the end too...

There are too many things to be bothered these few days. An old friend of mine thought that i had nothing to make me feel bothered because i'm still single... Yet for me, it makes no difference whether i'm in a relationship or not because there are still many things to be bothered about... Assignments, school and other forms of relationships... Complicated forms of it, sometimes make me doubtful whether there is any sincerity in all these forms... In reality, nothing happens or connects without a reason... A smile instantly connects people and yet sometimes it also distant them... You may wonder how on earth can a smile distant people? well, there are various types of smiles. Genuine ones are much too rare, courtesy smiles are always there.... Friendly smiles turns to courtesy and polite smiles when the relationship gets closer... Sometimes it even means forced smiles or even fake smiles... The harmful smiles are those which can appear to be sweet and warm but the meaning behind these are, hmmm what should i say, sarcasm?

Miss the ignorant days... there are so many things playing in my mind which i would not have thought of when i was a child... things get more complicated as life fades away... things that are hard to reach are even harder to reach than before...

This year's celebration...

Chinese new year has always been a time to enjoy and reunite with family and friends. This year's did not contain the atmosphere it supposed to have. yea, did went out with my friends once, yet i regretted for not going out more... All because of that pile of assignments... Why do we need to pass it up after the new year holidays? Why not on the 1st of March like the others... i hated staring at the laptop day after day... especially during the celebration...

Talking about food, I'm much enraged... I had sore throat (or is it some kind of injury in my voice box?) I hardly could say a word without uttering it in a husky voice which made me sound like a man... steamed prawns for my meals daily... excluding the BBQ chicken wings, butter prawns, new year tit bits and crackers... No fried seafood and other traditional herbal dishes... What a sad scene... But the only thing that i had insisted eating is the 'bak kua' although it is roasted over and over again... Gee, that could be the reason why i still have my sore throat until now.

Now that I'm back in my hostel there is nothing i could do to ease my dissatisfaction though the celebration is supposed to last for another couple of days. =(

The Least of today's...

Celebrated Miss Kan's, Afiqah's and Subhi's birthday...KFC + blueberry cake for lunch...yum yum... It's a very warm gesture towards them... happiness+fun+joy+ thankful

Had my clothes hanged... then the heart - to - heart talk with a friend...Heart breaking event... Please don't tear her heart into smaller pieces as she had nothing left for u to tear...she still needs the capillaries and ventricles to survive... be considerate about her dignity... This type of behaviour earns my loathing... From a little respect to none now... I see your true colours... I see emptiness cocooned by layers of flowery lies...A tragic one, in fact the most tragic one i have ever witness... yet, to you, nothing had happened...I'll only say heartless...

Hope: I'm still waiting... it grows fonder...I couldn't help it... mirage or real oasis - the life giver... it is warm, yet uncertainly cold with doubts... This is another trial... a happy ever after or never ever... The second... is the second better that the former? or is it the same... cross my fingers and hope for the best... freezing temperature or melting ice... let the wind break the news to me...

Back to work... feeling dreary this whole day...