Rejuvenation...(Sedili Camp)^^ 1

I am back!!! Four days of rejuvenation in Sedili camp swept away all my passimism... I simply love it!!! It's a pity i still can't manage to upload all my photos because of the poor wireless connection here... Will do so when the line is better...

Still, I'll give some insights into what I've experienced these few days...

First Day

We were given a task to complete the par course...(something like the National Service obstacle training)... For me, it's quite usual (just all those obstacle: crawling under the wire bulbs and muddy tunnels, climbing up the tree branch and down it, balancing on the ropes, etc...) the only difference is just that those mud aren't naturally formed... Half an hour before we start the the task, the facilitators used DIRTY DRAINAGE water (air longkang) to soften the mud along the trail,just imagine that...It was way smelly... I prefer natural mud which smells of moss and soil... But this...Euu... It's awful! Water that had been stagnant for countless days with lots of germs and some kind of nasty suspension... Just imagine, me, soaked in that slimy stuff...what an unpleasant feeling... I felt like living in the rubbish heap for months already... All those "tarzan" acts have to be done in the shortest time ever... What a pity my team took longer time than three other groups, still, i think we weren't the last ones.... Haha... after that we rushed to wash ourselves clean but the stinging smell still lingered around us... I had to abandon the shirt and pants on the fence... At night, we had a night walk session... Walking in pitch dark is no big deal, but the toughest part is we had to climb a hill, it's an up hill and down hill route, mind you... (overgrown with thick forest of course)... Holding on to a single rope to lead us to the clearings at the other side of the hill... Somewhere in the middle of the trail, the rope ended... We had to find another end of a different rope by either walking ten steps forward, or to the left or to the right... Our leader manage to find the rope...We continued our journey... we finish up this session by using half an hour's time... Someone in front of me tumbled down hill as they missed a footing or two... I sympathise with them,but was helpless when the incident happened...the one in front of me was actually pulled down by the one infront of her...together they tumbled down into the ditch... I heaved a sigh of relief as they weren't badly injured...(They slipped only a short distance down hill).....

Second day

This is the day whereby i enjoyed myself very much...^^ We had a jungle trekking session... Actually it is not a jungle trekking session, but a lalang trekking, as both sides are overgrown with lalang...The view was nice... Just think of the scene in Heidi...the scenery is just like it...

The trekking took about three hours if i'm not mistaken... we followed the trail amongst the tall lalang (weeds), passed through a small marsh area... Our shoes were damped by the soggy stuff...(luckily i brought two sport shoes)...Then, as we strolled towards a clearing, the view of the sea caught our eyes...We reached the beach at last!!!! It was a wonderful one.... the seaside consist of a combination of ivory white fine sand and smoothen pebbles of various colours...we spent an hour's time there (no wonder i got such a bad sunburn) waddling in the clear sea water, admiring the picturesque view...it was exhilarating to drink the fresh sea breeze sweeping pass my face... watching small fishes swimming near the shores....drowning in the laughter of my friends... It was simply fantastic...!!!! Then we had to walk back along the shores towards the main road before walking back to our camp site...The distance was 3 km from the main road... Walking under the hot sun was a challenge... Luckily my friend brought along her rain coat...we seek shelter under the rain coat (Rain coats can be useful too during the fine weather!!!) ... At least it saved me from further sunburns.... The during the evening we had mini sports at a different beach which was just a 5 minutes' walk from the campsite....We played dodge bal, sand castle building...and more... at night we had night patrols... I was to keep watch from 1 to 2 am... That night A few freinds and i were a grand feast for the uncountable blood sucking mosquitoes... I think i lost a pint of blood to those tiny insects....Lol....

......To be continued.... Haha.....^^

Excitement...

Feeling excited about going to Sedili camp tomorrow...

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Still, why do i feel uneasy...

(pause)...

something isn't quite right with me these days...

hmmm, feel like weeping for a moment but yet hyperactive after the moment passes...
what am i writing actually???
I'm writing nonsense...

Saw some other blogs with lots of nice stuff to view, stuff which will tempt you to view it again...
I really can't continue my childish blog anymore. or can i?

I'm lost, speechless... why can't i think of anything now???
Why can't i do things the right way round...
I'm frustrated yet helpless...
where's my soul???
I've lost it i think...

I can't seem to concentrate...
Maybe i'll ignore my blog for a week or two...

having bloggie depression syndrome....T-T

A different topic...

I hate myself for not being able to control my own soul...
it's running wild...

studies... Oh my god....
I do not like my current behaviour...
It is gripping me tight around...
Refusing to release...
I want fresh air...
I want inspiration...
I wana cry right now... This instant...

Hoping for some light in my soul...

I've done my ES assignment in my laptop...TWo more to go...But holidays' ending (day after tomorrow)....

No time to Retreat, no time to charge my soul, Why do i feel an emptiness in my soul....

While i was browsing through my friends' blog and some other seniors'. I feel a pang of uneasiness and discomfort....They looked happy...I bet they enjoy their colloge life (or university life perhaps?)... Not to say i do not enjoy my college life but I feel that it is not the same as theirs...

I experience depression now and then....My emotions aren't very stable (not PMS of course, neither was it related to gender relationships)

I've realised that i'm lacking of the enthusiasm i had for my studies years before.... Why aren't there any inspiration lingering in my life now.... I had wanted it so badly now... Why do i plunge into a total darkness and emptiness when life should be at its peak this time.....? I need some light which can lift my soul from this misery.... I do not want to lose myself.... lhoping for a light.... a light for my soul....

P/S: God, please help me through this depression period of mine.....

A List to do....

The Deepavali holidays has started... Most of my schoolmates had gone home this very evening, some will be staying back just like me... There are 3 more assignments to complete... But still, as the holiday mood arouse in me, I had gone to play table tennis with my friends who do not return to their hometown for 3 hours today!!!(got to free my stress after a long week)

i was thinking, how am i going to spend these few days fruitfully... I guess these are the activities that I am going to carry out...

First day (Tomorrow):

1. complete the draft for ES assign
2. go to the library ( scrapping some informative books off the shelves)
3. play tennis ( sweating - the best medicine for a healthy body)
4. ....
5. ....
6. .... (just cant think about it yet)

Moving on to the second day.....

1. type in ES assign. and re-check it
2. go to the library (mind you i'm not a nerd, just that some information needed might not be found on the first day)
3. start my SS assign. (I doubt that i can start on it, because the argument is quite tough to come up with)
4. go makan makan perhaps... steamboat for lunch.... sushi for dinner??? (no money lar -_-!)
5. treat myself to a movie of High School Musical 3 (Hmmm.... quite doubtful about it...)
6. ....
7. ....
8. end my day with a good night sleep

Third day (It's getting tougher to plan..)

1. start Recreational Sports reflective essay (maybe i'll complete just 2 for the first try)
2. still crawling on the SS assign i assume
3. revise or not to revise?
4. ....
5. ....

I've yet to plan for the fourth and five day...

Going window shopping? no!!

Going clubbing? never in my life!!!

Have a stroll at the seaside? perhaps...

chatting with friends until the wee hours? Hmm, quite a good idea duirng this holidays...

P/S: Hope that there are no distractions which will delay my plans...

We Dance....

Tzyy Wei n I

Jee Ying n I

TESOL chinese girls are all involved in this dance

Theva and I

The day before yesterday we had performed in the Deepavali function... I can not believe that I'm actually dancing the Indian dance....

Well, it started off one day when our Indian friends told us about the performance they were going to present during the deepavali celebration... They were quite desperate as there are only five Indians from our course...Then, Tzyy Wei said:" i want to join!...Let's join to help them!! "

(actually she was longing to wear the punjabi suit....)

That's how we got ourselves involve in it... I was dragged into it... We practiced very hard to get the steps right... (Chinese can't really dance like indian, do they?)...I'm actually quite forgetfull...but still with the help of Suya...I manage to get it right during the actual day of the performance...

On that day itself we were praised by Indian lecturers and other seniors as we danced quite well for a typical chinese....^^

I enjoyed myself very much.... Now it's time for me to get back to my assignments again... That's all for now....

Fire Drill...Very lame...

The day before yesterday, we had a fire drill session in the middle of the night...It was not a shock for me as I was still awake...My roommate really got the shock of her life...She was sleeping soundly when the siren rang...That made her jump high out of her bed, taking off her jacket (She couldn't recall why she was doing that)...She rushed to wear her long pants and together we 'run' out of the room...Other hostel dwellers were seen running to the staircase not because they were scared or feel panicked...They looked excited chatting away and shouting to each other as they decended the stairs...

My roomate and I were not rushing so much after rushing out to the corridor...I even went back to lock the door after walking half way towards the staircase...It's actually no big deal...

Half an hour's time was spent down stairs checking for any absent ones who were still in their rooms trapped deep in their dreams....I had a few bites from hungry mosquitoes at the carpark where we had gathered that night... I conclude this fire drilling practice does not reflect the actually situation when fire breaks out...Most of us even have time to answer the call of nature before 'escaping' from the hostel....

Wow, fast...

Here I am writing my last blog (for this month) before going back to my institute... Merely 6 days is nothing to call a holiday...In fact, it's an assignment crazy week...But still i manage to finish most...Thus i'll go back with a lighter heart...though this course sometimes weigh me with loads of pressure, i feel much use to it now...Thank god...I just hope that I can pass my exam with flying colours so that i can go abroad...Hoping for the best...Life's great!!!!